Time Is on My Side
This couple were the “senior” (head) pastor and his wife at the church where we spent 10 years working. She was one of those “super Christians” (at least in her mind). However, the reality of it all is she typified all the things I have learned to loath about religious people. She always had “all the answers,” and anything that deviated from her set theology was wrong. She could tell you how to live, while her own life was crumbling unnoticed around her. She pursued “ministry” based on her desire to have acceptance and really could not wrap her mind around love at all.
Saying all this, I’ve learned to pity this woman. Circumstances have moved this couple far away from our lives, but today we attended a funeral of a mutual family member/friend. It was good to see her and her family, but sadly, nothing has changed for her.
That’s the problem with religion. Things stagnate, because that’s the only way they can be controlled. Theologies become calcified, and they become fodder for liturgies. So many Christians talk about “relationship,” but in reality, if they were forced into choosing “pure” relationship — surrounded by things unknown or mystical — or the dogmatic belief in the structure, they would choose the controlled dogma. Because to be honest, that’s what they understand.
I know this is judgmental, and there are exceptions, sure. However, the truth of the matter is organized religion will never be able to accomplish its stated purpose because it is a mechanical, power-driven system that has forgotten its original purpose. And yeah, I’m lumping all “religion” together. But you know what? They tend to make sweeping, judgmental decisions about those of us “on the outside,” so I guess a turnabout is to be expected.
I’m saying all this to say that spending time with this woman of my past again re-focused me on my journey. The reality is I don’t want to be the blind follower of a power-inebriated organization anymore. I’m a true believer in a “relationship” — be it vertical or horizontal (and all my atheist friends smile and sigh at me again! ) . And I’m finding that time is on my side as I move toward discovery, toward knowledge and understanding, and toward being the person I believe God intended me to be.
Happy New Year!