The De-Conversion New Years Sermon
As a Christian, New Years Day was always a very special day for me. It was the day I would turn my back on all the past mistakes of the previous year and pray that God would make me a better individual in the year to come. I forgot those things which were behind me and pressed on towards the prize of the higher calling.
However, now as a de-convert, I cannot simply forget any of my mistakes of the past year. It is my responsibility to make sure I deal with them in order to move ahead. I cannot simple “give them to God” and know that they have been cast into the sea of his forgetfulness where he and I would remember them no more. I cannot accept that that I can simply confess that there is now therefore no condemnation for those actions but if I deserve to be condemn, then I have to pay the necessary price.
Also, I cannot simply expect my invisible diety to help make me a better person, I have to make the choices to change areas of my life which I deem as needing improvement. In other words, the responsibility sits squarely on my shoulders. I have to admit that it was so much easier to give things to God than for me to accept now that they are my responsibility. Throwing away my crutch and standing on my own two feet is sometimes a difficult feat to accomplish.
God doesn’t have a plan and a purpose for my life. It’s up to me to determine what I want my life to be. God isn’t going to bless me if I pay my tithes to the church. I have to work for my living, spend and invest wisely.
God isn’t going to bring revival and change this world. I have to do what I can to make a positive impact on those around me. God isn’t going to provide for the needy and those less fortunate than I am. It’s my responsibility to do what I can to help others.
I have to exercise and eat healthy in order to be in good health. A man being whipped 2,000 years ago is not going to bring me miraculous healing. If I abuse my body, I will have to face the consequences. For those genetic issues I’ve inherited, I have to work hard to delay their impact on my health.
Overall, the bottom line is that my life is my own. Of course, there are outside influences and circumstances beyond my control that may impact my life. I can’t trust God to keep me under the shadow of his wings and keep me safe from all harm. There are no angels with charge over me to keep me in all my ways. Plagues may come near my dwelling. Pestilences may cause me fear. However, I have to use wisdom and be conscientious in my decisions. When I face difficulties, I have to find the strength to deal with them.
What do I want for myself in 2008? It’s up to me to chart my course, navigate the storms, and reach the the desired stopover point on my journey.
Happy New Years!
– The de-Convert